Mattie's Diary: March 2034

Mattie’s Diary
To illustrate my fears of the change addiction America has been going through for the past 50 years, I will be writing short stories on my blog. These stories will take several days to complete. This first story I will be writing is called: “Diary of Mattie Adams” and takes place in Denver Colorado in the year, 2034 and illustrates how the same change can affect different people.

Diary of Mattie Adams
Sunday
1 January, 2034

Dear Diary,
Today is the very first day of the year! Since Mommy and Daddy gave you to me for Christmas, the birthday of Baby Jesus. I have not written in you because I told Mommy that I wanted to wait until the New Years Day to tell you about myself and my family. I love my Mommy and Daddy so very much and I know they love me too. Lately they seem so afraid and I don’t understand why?
My family had Christmas last week even though the mean man on the load speaker at the end of the block said that Christmas was no longer allowed. Mommy and Daddy told my brother Ronny and me that our Christmas was a secret. I think I can tell you Dear Diary because you are my new best friend and friends can share secrets. Mommy and Daddy also gave a diary to Ronny. Daddy told us we need to write something every day of things we saw and learned, because it may be important one day to document how our world has changed around us. I do not know if I can find things to write about every day but I will try when I can. It was so very hard for Mommy to find the materials to make our little diaries because of the rationing of paper for the average citizen. Mostly it is only allowed for government people to be able to have writing material because Glorious Father has told us we must save what precious trees in our forests for future generations and in order to save the forests paper is no longer sold to the private citizen. Only through abandoning greed and the need for ownership can we as a people find harmony with nature. This is told to us by my teacher. She also told us that in order to save energy Glorious Father decreed in ten years ago to ban the sale of private auto mobile to the average citizen and because we no longer depend on the automobile people are healthier and are more in harmony with our surrounding and this is a good thing. My teacher told us that in order to delete greed from our everyday life it will take time and effort but is part of Glorious Father’s Revolution that I may some day be part of this thing called a Revolution.
It is snowing today and is very cold in our house. The man on the load speakers at the end of the block said we should not be so greedy with our heat so that other people can be warm. I do not understand why me being cold is going to make other people warm but since the power is turned off on our block for 12 hours a day, we have no choice.
The day after Christmas, Grandma Ruth and Grandpa Bill came to live with us. I love my grandparents and they love me and it should be fun to have them live with us so that I can get to know them better. Family is the strongest bound in our lives and without family we are all alone with no one to take care of us. They seem so very frightened, not like they use to be. Five years ago, Grand Pa Bill took Ronny and me fishing up on the river west of Fort Collins in their camper trailer. They called it their Mountain Cabin and even put a sign on the back of the camper that says so. We had lots of fun cooking Smores and hot dogs over the open fire and counting the stars at night. Grandpa showed me how to put an icky worm on my hook and everything. Sleeping in a big tent next to the Mountain Cabin with Ronny was so much fun, I love my big brother and he loves me and when I am with him I am not afraid of anything. It is sad that Grandpa and Grandma had to give truck and trailer to the men in green uniforms. My teacher told us that ownership is an old way of looking at things. She said that no one needs to own any thing because the state will provide everything we need and in this way we will eliminate greed and secrets our lives. In the future, no one will have any needs or wants. When these things are eliminated, thanks to Glorious Father, we will all live in perfect harmony with all those around us. My teacher on the viewer at my school told us that people who have fun and desire to create new things and art are greedy because it is unfair to be happy when so many people are sad and can not create. I do not understand why being unhappy and uncreative will make all those other people unsad and creative. Sometimes grownups can be really silly the way they talk. Sometimes I am so confused and I wonder if they tell us the truth all the time.
Everyday a big white bus comes to our neighborhood and men in green uniforms and round hats go into the houses and return to the buses with old people who live in the houses. Daddy told me that these old people are going away on vacation. But why don’t they ever come back home? The other day when a big white bus stopped at Mary Johnson’s house, Mary’s grand parents came out with suit cases and got on the bus. I asked Daddy why Mary’s grandparents were going away on vacation, how come they can go off on a vacation to have fun and be happy and we can’t? Are they greedy to have fun and I am not allowed to have fun? I don’t think Daddy knows why the big white buses are taking people away.
Now that Grandma and Grandpa live with us, I have to share my bedroom with Grandma. At night she makes lots of noise when she sleeps and is always touching my dolls and things and I do not like other people to touch my things. We no longer have a television or computers or even radios some men in green uniforms came to our home a few months ago and took them all away. My Teacher Miss Xorphong says it is not fair that we should be able to own things that other people can not afford. So we have to give them to the big men in the green trucks. It is so quiet in our home, all the big people are afraid to talk to one another any more and there with no television or even a radio to listen to music there is no joy any longer in our home. Everyone is so sad. Last July some men came to our house and put some big boxes in each room. Daddy said they were listening devices so that anything we were talking about could be heard by the big men in the green uniforms. They let me keep my dolls, Susie, Agatha, Emma and Annie but a few days ago my teacher told me I have to rename my dolls to be more acceptable to other people and I was given a list of acceptable names for my dolls. Why do grownups have to make things so difficult?
I miss our big old house out in woods. It was way out in the country west of Longmont and I was so happy there. We had deer that would come down to our yard every morning and it was ever so much fun watching them from our front window. Sometimes there would be baby deer and they would hop around like they were on springs and I would laugh my self silly until I would fall down on the floor. I don’t understand why we had to leave that big house and big yard to move to this little house. My teacher told me that it was unfair to have so much room when other people had so little but I do not understand why us giving up our big house for this little house makes it fairer to the other people who do not have a big house. At my old school my teacher was Miss Smith and we had so much fun. I loved Ms Smith; she was happy all the time and made learning fun. At my new school it is not fun to learn anymore. I have been told that teachers have to follow a strict script given to them by people who study teaching but have never been an actual teacher. How can people who have never experienced being a teacher tell other teachers how to teach in a class room? Sometime I think that grownups make things far more complicated than they need to make them. Our school is in a big building and all day we sit by ourselves in big boxes called Q Bee Q’s, what a funny name for a box. Anyway, we sit in front of a “School viewer” all day long and watch a grown up lady who lives in a place called China. This grownup is teaching us a new language called Mandureash. Daddy told me that he heard that some day soon, everyone in the entire world will speak Mandureash because the world is “smaller now days” and to make things easier, we all need to be on,”The same page”. I do not think the world is any smaller then it used to be but maybe that is why we now live in a smaller house. My Daddy talk’s funny sometimes but it seems like he does not like this new Mandureash very much, Grandpa Bill tells anyone who will listen what he thinks of us changing our language to be equal and in harmony with the rest of the world.
The other night I heard Daddy and Grandpa Bill talking in the back yard. They were away from the listening boxes inside our house. They were talking really quietly and they kept looking around as if they were expecting someone to pop over the back fence and say Boo! Daddy kept saying things like, “Are you sure? And they lied to us!” Grandpa Bill was saying things like, “Of course I am sure. People told us this would happen way back in 2009 but most people did not believe it could happen in our country.” Grandpa Bill also used words like “underground”, “getting rid of dead wood” and something called “Mandated Age Reeducation Centers”. Grandpa was not very happy about the Mandated Age Reeducation Centers and he said that it was a “one way trip” and he for one, was never going to take that trip.
Last week the grownup teacher on my school viewer, Miss Xorphong, told us that it is only fair that we are all equal and it is unfair for one person to have more money than other people. But if a person works harder and is more productive than other people shouldn’t they be rewarded with more money? Who has the right to tell one person is allowed to be paid for their labor. Miss Xorphong told us once again that the failures of the past and the reason the Chinese needed to take care of us came from greed, liberty, freedom and choice. Eliminating choice in our lives makes our lives simpler and puts us in closer harmony with the rest of the world. Without choice there is no need for greed, liberty or freedom because everyone lives the same way and in harmony with each other. Without harmony society would fall apart and nothing would move and nothing would be able to function.
Mommy and Daddy had a meeting with a lady from my school last month, I have never seen this grownup before but she seemed to know all about me. She said she and the school had been tracking my progress in my studies and that I was not working to my full potential. She said that in April there would be another test to track my progress. If I had not changed my selfish attitude and learned to be part of the team by then, I would be put into another school to be more in harmony with the teaching of Glorious leader. Later at home Daddy got mad and said something about them taking me away to become a “Delta”. I do not know what a Delta is but if it means I would be taken from Mommy and Daddy I do not want to be a Delta.
One night after supper, we were all sitting in the back yard away from the listening boxes and Grandpa Bill told us that back in the old days, America borrowed lots of money from some Chinese people. When America could not pay back the money, the Chinese people took control of America and now we are no longer independent and free of China. Big people really talk funny sometimes, how can we be independent and free when everyone knows everyone is equal, my teacher told me so. Grandpa Bill does not like all the changes going on these days. He says that all these changes have been caused by greed, just like my teacher told us. Grandpa told us that about a hundred years ago, after something called WW 2; we used to have a form of government in America that he called a Republic. In those days people were able to think and talk any way they wanted to, as long as it did not hurt someone else, he called this the freedom of speech and said it was in something called the Constitution. He said Constitution like it was something holy. He also said that there were many things in the Constitution that have been “trampled on and forgotten”. How can word be trampled on words? He also said there used to be something called the freedom of the press. But if Freedom is in conflict with Harmony than anything called a freedom must be a bad and evil thing as it only confuses and frustrates people making them less harmonious. To me this just sounds silly, why couldn’t everyone just be happy and live in harmony? Anyway, Grandpa Bill said that the unhappy people were “hooked” on making changes to control the lives of other people. The more changes they cause a vacuum and more change need to be made to fill the vacuum. The more social changes these people got, the more they wanted. Grandpa also said that happiness has to come from within each person and can not be forced on them by the government. I am just a little girl but I would think that eventually we would run out of things to change. When there is nothing left to change what will happen to all those people who are addicted to change?
Tomorrow at school we will start meditation hour for the first time. My teacher told us that for an hour we will be in a deep sleep. During this deep sleep we will be given special instructions directly into our brains. My teacher told us this is another example of how progressive our school is. During our sleep we shall learn many things that would take us years to learn by simple instruction. I can hardly wait; I feel like my brain is so empty and needs to be filled up with all the wisdom Glorious Father can impart.

I think I will give you a name, Dear Diary. You will then seem more like a real friend to me and not just a book with blank pages. I will call you Dee from now on. Mommy and Daddy told me it is important that I write in you in only English no matter what. I am not sure what could happen that I would not want to write in English as that is how we talk. This will be our very own secret. I will tell you all my secrets Dee and I hope you can keep a secret. Can you keep a secret? I hope you can. Good night Dee.

Saturday
4 February 2034
Dear Dee,
The man on the load speaker at the end of our block announced today there would be more rationing of water to our sector because they are updating the water treatment center. My brother Ronny told me that he had heard that some people had damaged the water treatment center. I don’t understand why someone would want to keep us from getting water to drink.
Sally Hernandez, my new best friend, and I walk to school every day. She told me her daddy has just been promoted to a new job in Mayor Wong’s offices. He is going to be in charge of removing all English and Spanish signs in Denver and replacing them with signs in Mandureash. My teacher told us yesterday that within the next year, English and Spanish would no longer be used on any communications. I bet that will make Grandpa Bill really upset. He is always saying, “This is America, dog gone it, our constitution was written in English. Why should we have to change just because some idiots back in 2009 had to go to those loan sharks, the Chinese to borrow our way out of debt?” Grandpa Bill can get really upset sometimes. Last night, Grandpa was saying to Daddy, “Since Obama has been president of the United States for twenty five years, I wonder if he has gotten all the changes that he set out to do or if he still has something else up his sleeve.” I can not imagine what it would be like if we did not have our Glorious Father to lead us but Grandpa says he remembers back in the day when people could be president for only 8 years. My teacher, Miss Xorphong, told us that in the old days everyone had their own ideas of what the government should do and it was so disorganized. She told us that thanks to Glorious Father, we are more enlightened and with our support of the Glorious Farther we can complete the Revolution.
Grandpa also says he almost longs for the old days when his biggest complaint was the fact that some people only spoke Spanish in America but since there are no longer national boarders, the world needs a common language or else no one would be able to understand the other person.
Mommy goes to the food distribution center each day because we are no longer having a refrigerator, because they waste electricity and causes ice bergs to melt. The food distribution center is where the mean man from the government checks Mommy’s ration card and is always looking at me like I am going to steal something. Mommy told me that in the old days people were able shop in super markets that were not owned by the government and citizens could build and own these super markets. Some of these stores were so very large and full of all sorts of things to choose from, it must have been so very confusing in the old days. Mommy told me that back in the old days you did not even need a ration card to shop as long as you had the money to pay for what you bought. It all seems so exciting and confusing to think that a person could actually own a business without someone in the government overseeing the business. My teacher, Miss Xorphong, told us that the government makes decisions for us so that we can be more productive for the Revolution. She told us that if we were left to make our own decisions in life, we would most likely make the wrong decisions and ruin our lives down the road. I sometimes wonder what if everyone was doing the wrong things just because the government told us it was the right decision.
It is so very cold today. I do wish that we were able to turn on the heat in our home but the man on the loud speaker at the end of the block told us that the government has had to cut back on power production again. We are now only allowed to turn on our electricity 30 minutes a day. Ronny told me he had heard that another group of people had damaged the power station North of Denver. These people who are doing all these things to us must really be bad people and I hope the men in the green uniforms catch them. Miss Xorphong told us on the monitor at school, that one day soon; very soon, there would be no need for power stations because Glorious Father will be issuing power production kits for each home of all people who vow an allegiance to him and to the Revolution. Grandpa Bill told me what Glorious Father can do with his vow of allegiance.
Grandpa Bill told me he never voted for Glorious Leader back in the old day but that is just plain silly; President Obama has always been Glorious Leader. Grandpa Bill told me that in the old day, there was no Glorious Leader, that anyone could become president by being elected by private vote, deciding on their own who should be the best leader. How confusing it must have been to make a decision like that, it almost hurts my head just to think about it.
Today at the food distribution center the mean old man told Mommy that there was no bread today and would not be any in the future. Glorious Father has decided that wheat, oats and potatoes are unhealthy for us to eat and has decided that all Americans will now eat rice. This upset Grandpa Bill when he heard of the new food choice Glorious Father made for us. “Ten years ago they told us rice was bad for us and outlawed the production of rice in our country and now it is good for us? Where do they propose we get the rice since it is no longer grown in this country?” To this, Grandma simply said, “China”.
Daddy looks so tired these days. He comes home every night after his twelve hour shift at the GFO (Glorious Father Obama) Factory, where he stencils GFO on all the products made at the factory. Daddy used to be an attorney in Boulder, but Two years ago Glorious Father decreed that trial by jury was no longer needed and abolished all courts. Since Daddy was not trained in anything but to be a lawyer he took the only job available at GFO Factory. I do miss our big house outside Longmont and the deer that would romp around our front yard. I wonder sometimes if the deer are still eating the flowers Mommy planted so long ago.
Mommy is calling me to supper Dee, so I guess it is good night until tomorrow.

Saturday
11 March, 2034
Dear Dee,
I am so sorry I had to hide you under the floor at night but I am afraid I will have to do this each night because Father told me that the men in the green uniforms are starting to search homes for anything written in English. I hope you are comfortable in the box I placed you in last night because I don’t want to hurt you.
My teacher, Miss Xorphong, told us yesterday that in order for America to become self sufficient in the future, China will start sending advisors to our country next month and we should all welcome them with open arms. My school is picking students to represent it in the parade of flags when our guests begin arriving at the old State Capital building. I hope I get chosen, I just know Mother and Father would be so proud of me standing tall with my school uniform and red arm band. They say the new China-American National Anthem will be played in a show of friendship and solidarity to our guests. Miss Xorphong told us at school that without China’s help, the revolution would die, much as a new flower would die without water. Grandfather does not like this news and calls it an invasion and something about dancing on George Washington’s grave. He also says that Teddy Roosevelt and someone called Abe Lincoln are probably turning over in their graves. I don’t really know who these people are but to I guess they must have been the God’s that people used to pray to in the old days. But now we have Glorious Father to pray to and all the old Gods are dead. Grandmother is really worried with Grandfather’s outbursts, because we all know Glorious Father hears everything and neighbors are turning in neighbors and relatives who have said any cross words about Glorious Father. We all know Glorious Father is the fatherland itself. Glorious Father is no longer just one person, he is everything. If we are unhappy with Glorious Father then we are unhappy with everything around us. Just hearing Grandfather say those mean things about Glorious Father hurts my head so.

Today the big white bus stopped at the house across the street and the nice old people, who live there, were brought out the door of the house. I don’t think Mister Jackson wanted to leave his home and go on the bus because he was yelling at the men in the green uniforms and his wife was crying like nothing I had ever seen. Daddy told me these men were called Special Forces. Daddy told me that at one time, Special Forces were used to fight in other countries for something called Liberty and Freedom. Adults use some really funny words.
Anyway, Mister Jackson hit one of the men in the face with his cane and another man shot Mister Jackson in the back of the head and he fell to the ground with only a soft thud. Then the man in the green uniform turned and shot Missus Jackson in the face.
I do not understand why Mister Jackson would want to hurt that man. Hitting a Special Forces man was like hitting Glorious Father and striking at Glorious Father is like striking at all of us. I think the Jackson’s deserved to die for being so mean to those men. Did they not understand they had the duty to do as Glorious Father whished them to do? I heard one of the men say to another one, “Well that makes two less old farts to take care of at the center.” And another man said, “But what about all the damn paper work?”
They carried the two old people into the bus and drove off.
Later that evening Grandmother told Grandfather about the shooting and all he would say was, “They were the same age as us. Ruth, do you know what that means?” With those words Grandmother started crying softly as Grandfather wrapped his arms around her and whispered something in her ear that I could not hear.
Just last week my teacher Miss Xorphong told us that if a person is no longer able to function at a productive level for society, they have a duty to move on and get out of the way so that others can take their place. Old people only hinder the Revolution. Not only because they are slow and are no longer productive, they also find fault with all the changes Glorious Father wants to bring to his people through Revolution. It is said that it is because they long for the old days of indecision and Greed.
A few weeks ago, we had an assembly at school. It was so exciting, The Peoples Revolutionary Band of Boulder was there and it was playing the new national marches. Mister Chow, my school principle and the district cadre leaders were all standing on the stage under brightly colored banners proclaiming: VICTORY IN THE REVOLUTION! POWER TO THE PEOPLE! UNITED WE STAND! Suddenly, it became really quiet and the lights all turned off except for a spot light that focused on the doors at the back of the assembly hall. The doors flung opened and in marched many stiff legged men in black uniforms all waving large red flags. I had never seen flags like these before. They were all red except in the upper left side there a gold picture of what Grandfather called the Statue of Liberty. He once told me that it was really big statue on an island in New Beijing harbor, and used to be a symbol of freedom for the world. Adults use such strange words like freedom and liberty. My teacher Miss Xorphong says that Freedom and liberty are no longer the opposite of Harmony and therefore evil words. She told us that liberty and freedom is the same as a person having to make choices and making choices only slows down thought process and most times given a chance, most people would only make the wrong choice or decisions. Glorious Father makes our choices for us now days so that we may be more productive. Now the statue has a more proper name, “Workers Victory.”
The men in black uniforms continued to march to the front of the assembly hall and in front of the stage they turned so that every other man went left or right until all the men were in front of the stage marching in place to the music. The sight was so exciting and I could feel my heart beating as if it would pop out of my shirt. When the band stopped, all the men stop marching and lowered their flags as if pointing at each of us students. A hush came over the boys and girls as Mister Chow lowered his hands in a meaning for us to sit down.
Mister Chow seemed to be looking directly at me when he started to speak in Mandureash.
“Students, Glorious Father has sent word to me of how proud he is of your progress this year. This has been a year that has seen the culmination of the first stage of Glorious Father’s 100 year struggle in the Revolution for Social Justice in America.”
Applause erupted from everyone in the assembly hall and a sense pride came over me and I felt as if I were floating above the floor. Mister Chow continued to speak about the importance of brotherhood, teamwork, and pride in the Fatherland. He told us that we would need these things in order to achieve the second phase of Glorious Leaders 100 year plan. The Father land, Mister Chow told us is no longer just what used to be called the United States but is all inclusive of all nations since the old notion of national boarders was done away in the tenth year of the Revolution. Today the entire world is one and we are all the same, praise unto Glorious Father!
Mister Chow went on to describe the things expected of us, the things we would see and things we will be required to do. We ended the assembly with everyone chanting, “Mmmmmmm Yes we can, Glorious Father Obama, yes we can mmmmmm.”
Later that night, I told Grandfather of the things I had seen and heard. He looked very sad. “So the old son of a bitch is still getting away with the same crap that he did in 08’. Guess the old saying still holds water.”
“What is this saying Grandfather?” I asked.
“Grandfather, when did I become Grandfather? What are they doing to you in that school anyway?”
Today at breakfast, Ronald asked me if I was okay and I told him of course I was okay.
He just looked at me like I had developed a third eye or had worms crawling out my ears but made no more comment. I feel like my family is changing and for some reason I can not put my finger on it.
That is all Dear Dee. I must put you in the hiding place Father has made for me. It is really quite silly to have to hide you from the world to read. My praise of Glorious Father is not a bad thing but since I am still writing to you in English it could be a bad thing. Maybe in the future I will start writing to you in Mandureash after all English like Latin is now a dead language and the whole world now speaks Mandureash. Praise to Glorious Father and good night dear friend.



Dear Reader,
Mattie is no longer writing in her diary because her father has taken it from the hiding place and hidden it where Mattie will not be able to find it. He and Mattie’s mother and grand parents had grown fearful at the changes they have seen in Mattie during the past few months and are determined to keep her diary from being destroyed by Mattie herself. The following is being written as though Mattie might have written it herself in her diary.

Sunday
12 March, 2034

After breakfast Mother asked me to join her outside for a minute. When we were both outside and away from the listening boxes, she held my hand and looked me in my face and I thought I saw a tear in her eye. We sat down at the picnic table and she started to speak with a quivering lip.
“Do you remember those stories of Jesus we used to tell you and Ronnie when you were small?”
I held my breath for a second and did not answer her. I was afraid to even hear her say his name. The mere thought could put us all in danger. Did Mother not know that people were always listening and reporting far simpler things than mentioning his name?
“Oh Mattie, I am so afraid for you and what you are turning into” She cried softly.
I know I must have looked startled by what she had just said to me. Why should she be afraid for me, was it not her who was talking crazy? Did she not realize this person who I can not bring myself to repeat his name is no longer our God? My teacher Miss Xorphong tells us daily in our quiet and meditation time that there is only one true Lord and God of the Earth and heavens. He is Glorious Father and all the other so called gods that people once prayed to are dead! The mere thought of them is blaspheme, punishable by death. Last week in front of the Denver City Hall, they burned ten people to death who were caught trying to hold some sort of ceremony in an old warehouse near the old baseball stadium. My mother must know that uttering his name outloud is a sure death warrant for all of us, how could she do this to us.
I held my hands over my ears in an attempt to stop mother’s blasphemies and I started to cry and say “No, do not say these things! Why are you doing this to me?”
She tried to take my hands from my ears but I was stronger and jumped up and ran into the house. Father stopped me as I came in the back door and held me in his arms in a strong embrace.
“Mattie, you must hear your mother.” Father said in a stern voice and returned me to Mother who was now standing next to the picnic table.
I was in rage and at the same time afraid for all of us. My eyes filled with tears of hurt and rage as my mother continued in her certain death sentence for all of us.
“Mattie dear, you have changed so much I do not know you any longer.” This hateful woman who used to be my loving Mother was now talking pure hate at me. It was as if a vale had fallen from my eyes and for the first time I was able to understand the teaching of the Glorious Father and was unable to see these people as anything but enemies of Glorious Father!
This hateful woman who I had once called my loving Mother went on about how this false God and teller of lies and tall tales, had died for our sins and was the son of a God. How could he be a son of a God, Glorious Father is the only true God and he has no son. He alone came to this earth and now reins supreme in his holy city Maobama DC. She continued on and on as if in an attempt to drive me crazy. Why were these people, who I had once thought of as my loving family turning on me and were now treating me with such contempt? I had to escape from them tonight. I had to leave this house with all these crazy people. This crazy talk could only end one way and it was with us all being arrested for Blasphemy and burned at the stake as traitors to Glorious Father. I had to let them think I was one of them once again and regain their trust.
Father was still holding me tightly but when I stopped my struggling he loosened his grip on me and we all sat down at the picnic table. Even though this hateful crazy woman was still smiling and talking about her false God and his so called salvation, my ears were closed. I simply nodded and tried to smile the same way I used to smile when the vale was still in front of my eyes. Thoughts of my escape were all I could think of as both of these two strangers threw insult and lies at my ears. Would they never stop this insane talk? What gave them the right to treat me as though it were I who had changed and not them? They were no longer my family, my family was Glorious Father and my class mates who like me had become true believers in the site of God himself. Praise be Glorious Father, there could never be one before him.
After what seemed like hours they both hugged me as though they thought I was still one of them and the man I had once worshiped as almost a God himself put his arm around me and we walked back into the house together. Even though I continued to smile, the tears of hate still raged inside of me although only I could see them. For the first time in my life I looked around this house I had once called home and I was ashamed by the things I saw and at the same time afraid and this fear and shame turned to hate. It was an invisible hate that stays with me even now. How could I have not seen the ungodly things I saw now before the vale dropped from my eyes? So much room for so few people and were those paintings I saw on the wall and a large black book lay open on top of a table as if someone had been reading from it and it was in English! How dare they continue to read in English?
Oh no! My diary is in English! Why was I so stupid? I must get the diary and destroy those words I had written before the soldiers come to our door and make a search of my room!
I ran up the stairs in this large house fit only for those who could control our destinies from the outside. The old idea that people were able to think and decide for themselves how they would live their lives is over. Why can these people who I once thought of as family not see this? At the door to my room I opened it slowly as though I were entering a strange and wild place. A place that only last night I had slept and dreamed of the world to come under the exulted guidance of Glorious Farther.
Pushing the door open I looked in and it seemed I was in a strange bed room. How could I live like this? How could I be so selfish and full of greed? The window in my bedroom had brightly colored drapes covering it. Why would I need drapes on my window? I had no secrets to hide from the outside world and no one had any secrets to hide from me. I would rip those terrible symbols of my past from that window and let the world know that I was not a slave to greed and secrets. My bed was covered with a yellow piece of cloth and the pillow was covered in a cloth bag. How could I sleep this way? There was enough cloth on my bed and on my window to make several uniforms for Glorious Fathers Special Forces. Praise unto you, my father and may the days shine upon your soul.
Quickly I went to the hiding place under my bed and pulled up the floor boards. The space where my diary should be was now empty! Where was my diary? Who would take the pages I had written, was it the police? Had they come while I was outside with those evil people? Or was it one of the people I have lived with? If they took it, would they turn me in for writing in English and all the lies I had written before the vale fell from my eyes? I could not let them know I knew my diary was gone. They would probably imprison me in a closet or beat me. My life was now in danger from the very people who use to protect me. I must leave this house now.
I went back to the bedroom door and looked into the hallway, there was no one there. I could hear them talking but it seemed as though everyone was down stairs. They all seemed so happy they thought I was back as one of them. Closing the door softly I rushed to the closet and pulled on my school coat and hat and moved to the window. After I raised the window I climbed out on the roof. It was cold but it had not snowed over night so the roof was dry and I was able to climb down the side and crouched next to the side of the house. I was so excited I was escaping my imprisonment and would soon be home with the people who truly understood me and loved me for my love of Glorious Father.

Wal Mart Health Care

HERE IS SOMETHING TO CHEW ON, HOMER.

Why do small towns fight like hell when WalMart wants to build a store in their town? Because it will drive the mom and pop stores out of business. What happens when the Feds go into competition with the private sector? The private sector can not compete against the Federal government. Does this new federal government insurance company have to pay tax? I really doubt it. Will there be any share holders. will they have to follow the same rules as the private sector? Nope nope and I really doubt it.

WHAT IS MISSING?

It seems to the conservatives or the Right that no one was complaining about the health care situation in our country until President Obama was sworn into office in January, 2009.The progressives, are pushing for a "public option", but at the same time the main street media says that no one actually knows what a "public option", is. From the way I see it, a public option is sort of like expanding Medicare pure and simple, okay so what is the big deal? The big deal at least from the view point of the Right, the conservatives and Libertarians is the way the health care bill has been written. It is a power grab and a way the Federal government can gain more control of our personal freedoms and lives.

The President also said we would not have to give up our private health care option. What happens when our employers make the change for us in order to save them money? When a corporation or small soul owner business provides health insurance for their employees, the employer pays part of the insurance as a benefit to the employee. Given a choice and to save labor cost why not let Good Old Uncle Sam pick up the tab.

There can not be any fair competition between the Federal government and the private sector.The progressives or as I call it the Obama's Faithful sidekick, do not hear what is being left out of the health care bill: tort reform, insuring the Illegal aliens and interstate sales of health insurance.

TORT REFORM

Currently when one goes to a doctor because they are feel like crap the doctor who knows crap probably knows what is wrong but to cover his or her butt puts his patient through numerous medical test. Look at a commercial for any and all medication on television and you will hear all the disclaimers and warnings. The warning labels on OTC medication like even Aspirin has health warnings covering half the bottle. It kind of reminds me of the old snake medicine salesman selling his junk out of the back of his wagon. "Yes sire bob, Billy Bob Johnson's Joint and pain lexer will cure weak bladders, flaky hair, scaly skin, dropsy, wooziness and snoring", says the man on the back of the wagon. The only difference is now the pill people are telling all the side affects their medication might cause, like sleeplessness, sore throats scaly skin, cancer, dropsy and death. This way they cover their butts. I guess if someone actually dies from taking this OTC Medication they can't sue for the cost of the funeral.

If the Tort reform were included in the health care bill, it would limit the amount of money a person could sue their doctor for. Currently people can seek millions of dollars for loss of sleep, humiliation, loss of sex drive, loss of jobs, depression and dropsy. I have yet to meet any who has suffered from Dropsy but apparently lots of people actually died of it during the 1800's as I have actually seen it listed on tomb stones in old grave yards.

Getting back to the Tort, doctors in an effort to cover their collective butts, cover every possibility that a patient could sue them if something goes wrong. In doing so the cost of performing a simple procedure can sky rocket. If the Feds were to put limitations people could sue their doctors and hospitals for, less CYB tests would be needed thusly lowering insurance costs. Thus making insurance more affordable for younger people to purchase. When a person is earning $2,000.00 a month or less and an insurance premium costs $1,200.00 who can afford that?

There is an option in the health care bill where by if a person does not choose to get health care insurance they will be fined by the feds $800.00 a year. $800.00 if they don't and over $12,000.00 if they get the insurance. Does anyone see this as an extra tax foisted on the young singe tax payer?

ILLEGALS

Currently if an illegal goes to a hospital E R, they will be treated free of charge, Fact, period.

President Obama said with a straight face, in front of Congress & on National TV that the health care bill would not cover Illegals or abortions.

If an Illegal Alien were to show up at an emergency room in the near future with a knife sticking out their leg, is the president telling us that the hospital will turn this person away with no medical care? This is America and not Mexico, we do not turn away people for lack of insurance.

ABORTIONS

The question of abortions in the health care bill is up in the air. At the same time, the United States gives big bucks to foreign countries to pay for abortions. If it is good enough for Mexico why not here. To some of us, the act of Abortion is the same as killing unborn children. A few years ago a fellow in California was actually convicted of killing his wife and Unborn baby. I find it ironic that if a person can be sent to prison for killing his pregnant wife and unborn child why is it that abortion doctors are not prosecuted for murder?

As we go forward in this debate, no matter what we the people on the right side of the political spectrum want, we will have to accept what the people on the Left ram down our thoughts.

I guess the question of the day is how much more will some people take of all these social changes. In my future blog post I will be writing a fictional story and I repeat it is all fiction it has not happened ......yet but will be along the lines of 1984 but takes place in 2034 or 50 after 1984. It should be fun and since I and my wife are the only ones who read my blog I can say anything I want and not need to be Politically Correct and hopefully I won't have to listen for a knock on my front door in the middle of the night but who knows who is out there in cyber space.

Speed Bumps To Change

Speed Bumps
FIGHTING CHANGE.

What would happen if they gave us a war and nobody showed up? What if Obamas's Faithful hired guns (the Dems in Congress) can not get the Knee Cap & Trade bill passed because some people see it for what it is. what if the Federal Government actually passes the Gazillion Dollar health care bill and all the PRIMARY CARE PHYSIANS in the country went on strike and refused to see any patients that had any insurance. What if all the Doctors in the country decided in mass to only treat patients on a pay-as-you-go way of doing business? Why not? How many people have car repair insurance? How many people have Dental or eye care insurance?
All the warm hearted people out there who are pushing this health care program with the public option, are overlooking one little detail.

Medical Doctors are human.

When a person goes off to college to become a doctor, they sometimes take out very large student loans to get that MD title. Eventually they have to pay back these loans. The work is hard, the hours are long and it can take years to pay back these loans. Now President Obama and his "FAITHFUL SIDEKICKS", the progressives, have described all medical doctors as GREEDY SOBs. Being only human, medical doctors tend to look first for the welfare of their own family & then at the welfare of their patients.
"How Dare They!" screams Obama's FAITHFUL SIDEKICKS.
They will never understand that sometimes they can not bully people into doing what the theysee is the correct thing to do. This is because for a progressive or Marxist there is only one way to do things, their way.
When and not if this public option health care program hits the American people square in the face in the next few years and everyone has access to "Free" health care, because everyone will have a piece of paper that says so, will there be any Real Medical Doctors to treat them? Or will only the Ultra Rich Like Bill Gates, Donald Trump, the Kennedys, the Clintons, Al Sharpton, & Jessie Jackson be able to see thier very own personal primary care physian?
Right now there is already a shortage of primary care physicians in our country, does the Faithful Sidekicks of Obama not understand even medical care is part of the business Eco System?

BUSINESS ECO SYSTEM?

What do I mean by Business Eco System? In the real world, which apparently members of Congress and all of Obama's Faithful Sidekicks, do not live in, everything is governed by nature, not by the Progressive in congress. If you remove an object from a pool of water does a hole develope in the water? If the government tries to stimulate the economy by throwing money at wish list projects for a set period of time, there will be no lasting benefit.

"If you give a man a fish to eat he will eat for a day, but if you teach the man to fish, he can feed himself forever."

When the Government gives a person a choice of taking government money or earning more money in the private sector they will opt for the private sector.

I've got real news for all those Obama Faithful Sidekicks out there.

YOU CAN NOT FORCE DOCTORS TO WORK FOR THE FED GOVERNMENT UNLESS YOU DRAFT THEM.

And as I recall it, Obama's Faithful Sidekicks call the Draft,"Slavery". Are we about to turn our Medical Doctors into "Federally mandated Slaves"?

Just like all the good white folk that wanted to prove they were not racist by voting for Obama for President of the United States, the Faithful Sidekicks will wake up one day and realize they have been had.
I have a real hard time understanding why Obama's Faithful Sidekicks are doing this to us, why do they hate us so much? There are cheaper and quicker ways to reduce the skyrocketing costs of medical insurance but in doing so, it would take POWER & CONTROL away from the people who actually control congress and even the president of the United States of America.

POLITICALLY CORRECT POLICE

ARE WE ALREADY IN A NANNY STATE?

In this installment of my bloc I am introducing my imaginary co-worker and evil twin brother and since Tommy Lee Jones and I are de-facto twins in that we share the same birth date I guess Homer is in fact my de-facto imaginary triplet. But since Tommy Lee Jones and I are not really related we do not actually have a relationship whereas Homer and I go back to the days when I would search for our friend Ralph in toilets. But I digress and as I get older I tend to digress more and more often. Homer is a fine fellow though he tends to be rather rude and crude at times and is politically correct challenged, unlike your truly. Due to the fact that he and I look alike I sometimes get blamed for him burping in church or at funerals. On the other hand he has a wonderful sense of what is wrong with the world and is always happy to share his knowledge with anyone who will listen to him.

THE PC POLICE

Have you noticed that the PC Police are now saying that American flags should be outlawed or at least from apartment complexes? This is because it could offend other people living in the complex. Prior to 1970 most people were proud to have an American flag visible from their home or business. Now days to appease minorities, non-Christians and draft dodgers, the majority has to bend to the will of the minority.

If a public school or state university or college has a rule in place to the benefit of the majority and they get a complaint from just one parent or even an outside organization they will change the ruling because they would rather appease these groups than be sued. Sometimes it is just cheaper to change than pay for court costs. My question I suppose is where does it stop? I call this Creeping change cause by litigation.

Our nation has become litigation happy and it costs the consumer billions of dollars each year in updating costs of the product, cost of the enhanced packaging. Also do to silly litigation it has also added costs to health insurance.

Have you looked at a wheel barrow and noticed the warnings label on the side? "Not for highway use". For a hot air blow dryer,"Do not use in bath tub." On OTC medications the warnings takes up take up over half the label and sometimes even makes it difficult to find the dosage amount. Why can't we take responsibility for our own actions or inaction's?

Wash Them Veggies, Homer!

My wife Ruth tells me that on one of her trips to Mexico, she witnessed a veggie picker relieving himself on the ground next to the veggies he was picking. Is it not strange there is no warning label on the lettuce?

At the same time, when we buy clothes, how often do we simply start wearing them once we get home, without washing them first and don't get me on cooking chicken with out washing it. God only knows what grubby hands have touched the chicken or the shirt we just bought. Hey Homer, do you think anyone may have dropped that chicken on the muddy and bloody floor that you are cooking with washing it? Gag me with a Mack truck!

A factory is a dirty place, pure and simple. Common sense says to wash new stuff before we use it but do we need a warning label to tell us to do this common sense thing. Actually in Homer's case, yes.

THE WORLD AIN'T THE SAME AS YOUR DADDY'S WORLD, HOMER.

No, the world is more complex than it was when I was a kid. Back then, a woman who was a stay-at-home-mother may have let the neighbors kids come to her house until the school bus arrived. Now days, due to all the frigging senseless litigation's going on around the country, a stay-at-home-mom who volunteers to let the neighbor kids stay at her house between the time other parents have gone off to work and the time the school bus arrives, by law has to purchase a day care license. This actually happened recently and because someone reported this nice kind hearted person to the police, she could end up going to prison for being basically a one person neighborhood watch.

OMG HOMER IAROTFLMFAO!

Getting back to hidden or camouflaged changes, one of the biggest villains in our society these days is not conservatives, liberals, non-Christians or even people of color. It is Twitter, Cell phone texting and TEENAGERS. Teenagers, are our biggest mortal enemy in life. Why is it that a person who has been on the Earth a shorter time than the length of time I have owned some of my under wear, thinks they know far more of life than I do? asked Homer.

Have you been a restaurant and had some young kid who is sporting a Mohawk asks you,

"Howzitgoing guys?" Or "Canigetchu anytin else, guys?" I don't know about you, but my wife, mother, sister or daughter is not a guy. If I wanted a guy to be my wife I would be in a gay relationship or a gay marriage but I choose not to. Not saying being in a gay relationship or marriage is a bad thing. Speaking of Gays wanting to marry, I for one can not understand this notion. I have yet to find some guy I would want to kiss let alone marry but to each his or her own. Anyway getting back to texting and twittering and all the stuff teenagers do with their thumbs. Can you imagine what it must be like for an English teacher these days trying to read a ,"What I did over Summer vacation essay. Here is my attempt going by my IM with my grand niece.

Wt I dd ovr Smr Vac.

By Krissie Collins

Omg it wz fntstc all th bz @ th bch & th wtr wz so wrm..Tommy iz sooooo drmy & he hz a nw cr tht iz so fst. I hp he dsnt gt a tkt........

I wonder these days where will the great writers come from once I am gone?

Is that your pocket calling you or are you just having fun, Homer?

I also wonder if teenagers are developing extra strong thumbs with all the use on the keyboard.

I have seen groups of teen age girls walking down the street from school and each one of them is talking on their cell phone and I wonder, could they actually be talking to one another? It has gotten so bad that I doubt that teenagers remember what it is like to actually talk to the person face to face. And don't me going on all the four letter word coming out of their Innocent little faces. Tell me, can a teenager say a complete sentence in this day of age without the use of, fuck, shit, pussy, or prick and that is from the girl teenagers.

So how will all this texting , twittering and foul language affect us in the future? As society brakes down and no one can talk to another soul face to face? Will people separate themselves from each other even more than they are now? Personally I have not sent a snail mail letter via the post office, to anyone in years. I have my reasons that being that the postage is so costly and slow. Whereas Emails are Free and faster. But writing Emails most people over the age of 50 are still capable of using real words and can even combine multiple words to make a complete paragraph. Twittering and texting is sort of like Morris code or secret sign language that only young people have the desire to learn. But why is this happening? Is it pure laziness, speed or what. All I know is that if a person does something long enough and often enough for their own personal stuff the bad habits follow them to the real business world. Stuff like when they get a job.

RESUME

Krissie Collins

May 10, 2020

I m lookng 4 a jb wr I cn shr mi xpr in wrtig 4 mi hishl nzppr & I m sr I wl be n ast 2 yur orgzn.

I probably have too many letters for some of the words but since I do ever twitter or text anyone, this is.......th bst I cn du.

When did we start getting so frigging sloppy, Homer?

After I got out of the Marine Corps, I worked in several big corporate offices in the Denver. It was a time when women still wore dresses, high heels and makeup and men wore a suit, tie and leather shoes to the office. Everything was pretty formal and it seemed to me in retrospect that people took pride in the way they looked. Back then, men looked like men and women just looked sexy, but I digress. This was a time before dress down Fridays or business casual. Two terms some of you younguns may not have ever heard but ask your parents they can fill you in. It was cubical hell, as I fondly remember my work environment. Not unlike a Prairie Dog town where little prairie dogs can be seen looking out of there little burrows in search of danger. This is where they put 100-6X6 padded cubical cells in long rows, with desks attached to the cubical walls. In some cases they could actually be smaller than some jail cells. Unlike actual prison cells we were only in them 10 hours a day and I think some prisons lock up the inmates for 8 hours a day.

Around 1998 I was working at Oppenheimer Funds in Denver. about this time a new term came about, Dress Down Friday. That was accept when there was a board meeting or some other hoy-tea-toy-tea function, then we would go to business casual. The idea I guess came from some government sponsored research, that probably coast $100,000,000.00. This government sponsored study found that: if a person were given the freedom to choose what attire they wore to work, they would be more functional and productive. I guess Fridays were not seen as being very productive since most of the managers left early to drive up to Winter Park for a weekend of skiing. Letting the Philistines down in the dudgeon, I am sorry, I mean the cubicle offices, wear approve relaxed clothing they would be more productive. In a later post I will list the actual approved attire for a days work in a typical office in Denver. I do not understand why taking off a tie is going to make me more productive but what the hey, I can't stand the dang thing anyway, but I digress. Things were going along pretty good and during the following summer they even allowed the women folk to wear shorts. Sometimes a good thing, sometimes a bad thing. It was not long before some women, I won't point fingers after all these years, went so far as to wear black leather mini skirts to work. Now, on some women I have no complaint but a 300 pound woman in a black mini skirt is sort of like putting 500 pounds of potato's into a gallon size paper bag. And that ain't a pretty sight, Homer. "Speak for you self", says Homer.

After a year or two of the dress down Fridays, except for, "Business Casual Friday"( approved business casual will be listed in a later blog), the powers-that-be decided that, "By George, we have actual adults working here" Powers-that-be, always talk like that. "Imagine that", smirks Homer. At that point they gave us guidelines of what was not acceptable dress and from that point further we were allowed to come into work seven days a week dressed the way we felt, as long as it followed the guide lines list. And as I mentioned this was longer than the list of names in the NYC telephone book.

DOES CASUAL DRESS MAKE A MORE PRODUCTIVE EMPLOYEE?

That is the question of the ages. These days I could be sitting here naked as a Jay bird in front of this computer and put out the same volume as I could if I were dressed in a coat and tie. The down side of working by ones self is the size of the Christmas office party, the upside is that I get to drink all of Homers beer since he is not really real. At the time we did the paradigm shift of moving from formal to casual, I really didn't see any change in my output. The problem was not so much the clothes as the distractions in the office. "Homer, I am not talking about some twenty something girls in shorts." The problem in my case was that at the same time we got to go dress down everyday, Oppenheimer put all our computer work on the Internet. Amazing how many cartoon strips one can view on the Internet, says Homer. As all documents would come into the company mail room, they would be scanned into the system and sent cyberly to the designated department. Unlike the airlines, the document did not end up in Iceland. All the work from that point forward was done in Gooeys to save time and man power. Thus our computers were all hooked up to the Internet. It was the late late 1990's and not everyone had a private computer at home to "surf the net". It was like a kid going to a toy or a candy store and was able to sample everything in sight all day long as long as you didn't get caught . Before Oppenheimer went to a Gooey systems, all documents came to the department in hard copy and the computer terminals on our desks were what was called dumb terminal.

When the company changed from sending all hard copy to the departments where they would be processed to scanning each document, everyone became paranoid and depressed. The paradigm of handling hard paper document to viewing the same document on a computer was a traumatic event. It was sort of like going for a boat ride on the SS Minnow with no life jacket knowing Gilligan was in control. For lots of us it was the first time we had no access via the Internet and they were going to pay us to do this, shoot I would do it for free. This is a paradigm shift of giving employees access to the Internet has affected almost every business in the world and even though it has allowed us more flexibility and speed it has also allowed us more time to goof off. It is as if nature hates a vacuum...hmmm where have I heard that?

GETTING BACK TO POLITICALLY CORRECT POLICE.

During the First World War, British Ministry of Information official Arnold Bennett used the expression politically correct in vetting language for “appropriateness”for the very first recorded time.

For me, the first time I saw actual Politically Correct Police in action was November 2, 1967. He was a big feller, an SP ( shore patrol or MP)if you will and riding along with us on the Liberty bus in Subic Bay in the Philippines. He was there to make sure that no happy go lucky Marine call the Navy a bunch of pussies rough any sailor up. Remember, it is unkind to our military bothers, who wear a really cool Dixie cups on their heads, a pussy or squid, as it just hurts their feelings. We all know Sailors are a bunch of winy cry babies after all, right? Another thing that is not politically correct pushing sailors off the liberty boat on the way from the ship to the liberty port. "But Sir, he is a Squid and Squids live in the ocean", complained Homer.

"Do unto other before they can do crap to you", says Homer. But the proper version is, "If you ain't got nothing nice to say, keep your pie hole shut, Homer".

DIVERSITY, AIN'T WE ALL THE SAME?

With so many people in our country coming from somewhere else, it is being a good Christian to treat others as we would want them to treat us. "Even though we all know them rag heads just want to jihad our butts and pillage and rape our wives", says Homer.

Hey Homer, now you have more than one wife?

"Just seems like it at times." says Homer, as he sucks another Coors.

DIVERSITY IN A REALLY SMALL TOWN

Back in the hometown of my youth, Fort Bragg California. The terms: Diversity and being politically correct, were not part of our world. I lived in a "Vanilla White World". Protected from people of color, we all knew that if they moved into our little town, it would just lower our property values. They would also end up raping and pillaging our wives (never did know anyone who did have more than one wife in my life). Back then we were protected by the pearly white Masons and by our very vigilant all white police force of four cops. commity as she has a deep rooted fear of the outside world to this very day.

The only people of color in my home town back before Woodstock, was some locale American Indians, some Italian families and some Portugese families. I do remember one time I was on the high school track team and they were taking the group picture for the year book. Someone yelled out to Archie Dunsing," Hey Dunsing, smile so we can see you." Words like this can hurt a person even though Archie, being used to this stuff, walked it off. One can't help wondering what he was thinking and how badly it scared him for the rest of his life.

We have come along way from the days prior to Woodstock, the Summer of Love and the Viet Nam war. But I keep thinking that the changes our country has been forced to make may have made some people on the left, only long for more and more change.

Is the act of getting one's way or making changes on a national stage a form of adiction?

IS THIS A PROGRESSIVE JIHAD?

PROGRESSIVE BLOGS

Sometimes to understand hidden agenda or camouflaged paradigm shifts, we need to look at the source. The following is a list of what I call the top ten progressive Marxist blogs, I will explain in a little bit why I claim that the left or progressives are actually Marxist in sheep's clothing. I got the list from http://www.associatedcontent.com/

ARE THEY BLIND OR IS IT JUST PLAIN OLD HOPE?

Yesterday, on face book I posted that the whole health care bill had nothing to do with health care, but was just another way for certain groups of people to obtain control and power. Someone else by the name of William wrote in and demanded to know what I meant by Control and power. He actually listed all the wonderful things that are supposed to be in the health care bill (that no one has yet read). Sometimes I wonder if there are those among us that are blind or just full of so much HOPE that they can not accept what is right in front of them.

Sometimes, our minds just cannot accept seeing what our eyes are looking at.

JUNK DRAWERS

Do you have a junk drawer? I think every house home has at least one and some people have an actual junk garage or spare room. This is where we store the stuff we don't need every day but we can't throw away because as soon as we throw it away we will need it. Have you ever tried to straighten out that junk drawer? It is almost like magic, as you pull stuff out to sort, more stuff seems to flow in. Sometimes I think some people have junk drawers for brains and no matter how they look at things they will never be able to see what they are actually looking at.

Anyway getting back to the Liberal, sorry Progressive blogs the following is the top ten list:

http://krugman.blogs.nytimes.com/The Progressive Blue community encourages civility and actively promotes progressive candidates.

http://www.associatedcontent.com/topic/61/health_care.htmlWellness, Candidates & Causes, Poverty & Economics, and Environment & Science, among others

http://www.docudharma.com/There are no rigid restrictions here, it is a salon and a laboratory and a place to create a new reality

http://discuss.epluribusmedia.net/publishes selected stories, as well as a community blog

http://www.democraticunderground.com/a huge democratic forum with well over 100,000 members

http://www.mydd.com/Their Breaking Blue sidebar section has up to the minute news.

http://www.opednews.com/tough progressive website, supporting values that are really dead center American

http://thinkprogress.org/ They publish original content, which much be accepted by their editors before publication. They have a blog fellows program to reward quality.

http://www.swingstateproject.com/covers key races around the country and keeps track of the political scorecard of it all.

http://www.prospect.org/csnc/blogs/tappeda good source for wonky news. (what is wonky news?)

http://krugman.blogs.nytimes.com/one of the best and brightest liberal voices out there in the media

One thing I have noticed is that these blogs are more like major news papers than the words of one person, unlike this here blog. The nice thing is they will be a wealth of information for this blog in the years to come.

A MARXIST WAS I

I actually sorta kinda understand how it is the progressives think. Mostly because I think years ago I was probably a Marxist. But I was a senior in high school and it was 1964. The President was Lindon B Johnson, a Democrat but we all know the people who were actually in control were the 'stuffed shirt' Republicans. I was living and working on a hobby ranch about 80 miles north of San Francisco, in Marin County California. It was a different time and almost a different planet. Living on that ranch far from the nearest town with no television, I got hooked on talk radio. I listened mostly to KGO talk radio from San Francisco California the town across the bay from the 'People's Republic of CAL Berkley'. That was 1964-1965 and Mario Savio was the fire brand liberal and leader of the SFSM or Students Free Speech Movement from CAL Berkley. I am not sure why that garbage was so fascinating to me then but it affected me so much I actually read the Communist Manifesto, 1984, Brave New World and Animal Farm during that school year. It was romantic, it was new and it was different. The message was 'Change, Power to the People, Fight the Man and Be Kind to Mother Earth'. We were all idealists and we wanted change, change, change! Maybe that is the problem we have now. These same people are still around who are addicted chanting the mantra of change; an addiction that has grown over the years and refuses to die.

PROGRESSIVES ARE THE VERY SAME AS THE ISLAMIC TERRORISTS

I guess I have never thought about it before, but progressives are made from the same cloth as the rag headed Islamic Jihadist. Think about it. The Islamic Jihadists will never give up their quest until they have killed every infindel in the whole world. They probably will, too, because the West have become the champions of diversity and complacent in our false sense of security, we will probably give up the flag without a wimper. Liberal or progressives will never give up on their quest either. They just keep screaming about their causes (with hidden agendas) until the conservatives become too weary to push back. They won't be happy until they have defeated every conservative in America. They probably will, too, because most conservatives have become complacent in their false sense of 'Truth, Justice and the American Way', that they will won't realize they've losing until the war is over! Conservatives have gotten complacent and happy to be left alone, but the agenda of the Progressive is to 'silence' or convert all non-progressives, just as the Islamic Jihadists want to 'silence' the infidels. Will this end in civil war and be a fight to the death? Where will we escape to....when there is no longer a FREE WORLD?

MENDOCINO COUNTY

The little town where I was born and raised is Fort Bragg, California. It was a redwood logging and fishing town in Mendocino County, unofficially governed by the Masons. This included all the big wigs in high school. It was a different time then. Nothing seemed to change durning my younger years. In 1961 a black family who were visiting friends in town, were met by the chief of police and escorted out of town before sunset. There on my little hobby ranch, I was an 18 year old kid, living by myself in a trailer house on a 100 acres of rolling hills, with a gentle stream flowing through it. My job was to feed Angus cattle, quarterhorses, collect chicken eggs, feed rabbits, ducks, goats and sheep. Every day, seven days a week, all for $85.00 a month. I did get free room and board plus the unlimited use of an AM radio. My boss, Mrs Gotterdamn, did allow me to go to school, but all the chores had to be done in the mornings and after school. Now that I look back, it was one of the best times in my life. I was living in a paradise of rolling hills and gentle climates. Plus, I got to shovel all the cow shit I wanted to, every frigging day. What more could a teenage boy want? At night I would do my homework, draw cartoons and listen to the drunks, Marxists and the avowed 'Ban the Bomb' crowd (there was no war to be anti about yet)on the radio. My teachers probably thought they were seeing things when I came back to visit them after completing Marine Corps boot camp the following year wearing my uniform. My Social Studies teacher thought for sure I would end up with the radicals at Berkley. Surprise! Surprise!

WHAT IS A LIBERAL?

Any way, the terms progressive, liberal and socialist all mean the same thing: spread the wealth and make everyone equally miserable. (Have you ever seen a happy Progressive?) In essence, the Marine Corps Boot Camp is actually a living Progressive / Marxist test tube. The first thing they do is break everyone down and make everyone look alike. That is why the first thing they do is give you a really short haircut. After that, they make everyone think the same way and do EVERYTHING the same way.

A progressive or socialist looks at conservatives as being unbending and uncaring. This is why they are pushing the health care agenda so hard. But the funny thing is the blind masses do not understand that those who are actually pulling the strings have sold them out to another power that has nothing to do with Free health Care for everyone. It all comes down to POWER AND CONTROL.

What is a paradgm?

What exactly is a Paradigm Shift and why do I call this thing Paradigm Shiftyness?

The first time I heard the term "Paradigm", was probably when I was taking some business class in college way back around 1977. Along the way I have heard the term in time travel movies & books, "Don't change any thing when you go back in time or you will cause a paradigm shift to the future." The dictionary says it is pronounced par' a dime and means: a pattern, example or model. It also means An overall concept accepted by most people in an intellectual community, as those in one of the natural sciences, because of its effectiveness in explaining a complex process.

CHANGE FOR CHANGE SAKE

Okay...now that really explains what it is if you are some egg head geek who talks like that. But for the rest of us, as was explained to me by one of my college teacher many years ago: anytime a new process comes along and replaces an old way of doing something, this is a shift in the way things are done IE a paradigm shift. When a group of people such as the government changes things the way we have always done it through a new law and makes the change camouflaged, no will notice how the change affects them. Let's say some group has an agenda to stop people from earning a living as farmers in California's central valley they could find a little bitty fish that is almost extinct and mandate the government turn off the water to the farmers. One might ask why would one group of people want to stop another group of people from earning a living. If there are no pesky humans on the land the land stays pristine and untouched. One can never underestimate the mindset of people.

CHANGE CAUSES STRESS

During the past 200 years the social fabric of the world has gone through many changes and yet mankind is still here and still coping with change after change. It seems like as the years go by that change for change sake is snow balling and the hill this snow ball is on is only getting steeper.

CHANGE AND THE 20TH CENTURY

Can you imagine what it must have been like living during the first part of the 20Th Century?
Take for example a person makes buckboard wagons for a living around 1910, by 1920 his buckboards have been replaced by Ford trucks and cars. Another example is the March of Dimes. During the late 1940s and on into the early 1960s, the purpose of the organization was to raise money to fight Polio. You probably remember that President Roosevelt is on the Dime and he had Polio, thus the name and the logo of the organization. After Polio was eradicated in the United State by 1960, the March of Dimes was in a quandary of what to do; disband or find another form of childhood medical problems to raise money in order to stay in business. What they came up with was the term Birth Defects and since the term covers such a multitude of deceases and maladies that will never be cured they are still in business. This would be viewed as a paradigm shift where by the organization was flexible enough to change.

STUDEBAKER

Other organizations have not been successful when facing changes in technology or social order. Car companies have come and gone over the years, some lasted longer than others because they were able to make the required changes and others have not. Examples of car companies that did not have the moxie or grit to adjust to the times would be Packard, Hudson and Studebaker. Studebaker is an interesting example of what I would call a delayed failure. During the 1800s Studebaker made wagons and carriages and actually were able to move from horse drawn wagons to horseless carriages. Studebaker even survived The Great Depression and continued making cars and trucks until the mid 1960s. They made some of the most advanced cars on the road.






1956 Studebaker Golden Hawk.

1963 Studebaker Avanti


Sometimes I still wonder what went wrong why could they not change and continue to be accepted by the American car buyer? Some felt it was because the cars were simply too far a head of the times but maybe it was something else. In the weeks to come I will continue to explore what it was that caused Studebaker to close up shop

A PERSONAL PARADIGM

I myself, like others before me, have gone through hundreds if not thousands of personal paradigms. These could be caused by job change, accidents, marriage, birth of a new son or daughter, locating lost relatives or winning the Lotto.

FLO CHARTING CHANGE

Another class I took in college pertained to introduction to computers. This was so long ago we were taught about punch cards instead of key boards and personal computers. I don't even think the Mouse had been invented yet. Anyway one of the exercises we had to per form was to create a flow chart. A flow chart showing all the decisions we had to make driving into school. Every time we came to a stop, made a turn, flipped on the radio or looked in the Morrow. Each time we make a decision on anything that affects our future life is a change in the direction of our personal future. Say for instance you are going to work and when you get to your car you realise you forgot your keys. You go back inside and spend another five minutes searching for the keys and along the way, you dear old mother calls you to let you know that Clyde Johnson who once lived across the street from your family when you were 10 years old has died. Even though you can not remember who the hell old Clyde was you say,"Oh really that is so sad, but I am sure he had a wonderful life." And your mother spends the next five minutes reminding you what a terrible person he was to you as a child.

Finally finding the missing keys, you run out of the house realizing you are going to be late for work. After driving for 2 blocks you come upon a long line of cars and there is flashing lights up ahead, someone has had a fatal accident. The ironic thing here is that if you had left your house when you had started to you would have been in that fatal accident.

DEALING WITH TRAGETY

Another way that paradigm shift play into our life's is when a loved one dies. This happened to me November of 2007. My wife and I had been married for 37 years, our two sons were grown up and moved on with their lives. She had been sick for several years but as they say death came unexpected. The Friday before she died I had just finished my last landscape construction project for the year, she told me she didn't feel well and went to bed early. Over the weekend I tried to get her to eat and get up out of bed but with no success. The following Monday I was bound and determined she was going to eat something and get out of bed. I found her still in bed and she was in a comma. All of a sudden I was alone for the first time in over 37 years. During the next couple of months I went through all the guilt and anger that happens when a loved one leave us and worse of all after the funeral it seemed like everyone I knew shut me out, I guess they felt I wanted to be alone in my grieve. I had never felt so alone in my life. Days would go by where I would spend the entire day just staring out the window and watching the winter snow falling down around me. After a couple of months I could not take the endless days of existing and decided to get a part time job. To do something to fill the void until the Spring, when new construction jobs would become available. At the same time I toyed with the computer dating as away of meeting new people. After several first dates at Starbucks, I gave up and canceled my subscription to the E Harmony. After about a week, I got an Email from a woman who asked me to give her a second look. Finally, we met in person and about 7 months later we were married. Overnight I went from having two grown married sons and a married step daughter and 6 grand children to three grown married sons and two married daughters. My new wife Ruth, who is 8 years younger than me is a bi-lingual teacher and had been living alone for over 20 years and all of a sudden this old geezer is sharing her home with her. Right off the bat I understood that she had developed a life for herself over the past 20 years, was self reliant and in all that time never needed a man to make her decisions for her. I did not want her to change her friends or her life style for me, yet in the past year changes have happened by her choice as we have both adjusted to our lives together. I think we each had had a void in our lives and we each filled the other's void sort of like a man and woman spooning.

CHOICES

When one is faced with a paradigm shift there can be three different responses:

1. Be flexible and change with the shift

2. Fight the Shift

3. Let the shift make you depressed and in some cases it can actually cause death.

The problem is that sometimes we are faced with a Paradigm Shift and have no clue it is happening or why. I call this a Camaflaged Shift.

CAMAFLAGED SHIFTS

One of the really big things I want to look at and hopefully get some discussion going on is the Paradigm Shifts that we do not even see. These are the ones caused mostly by the government, big business or some other large organization we are a part of. Most of the Camaflaged Changes are caused by people in government and some of these people are not elected and yet they have more power sometimes than those we elect. We all have private interests we try to champion but some people are in positions where by they are able to use public money to further their interests, causes and agendas. Is it fair for one person to take the money of the tax payer and give it to another group who is in competion with you? In order to level the playing field sometimes the government appointees will put up roadblocks for the average person that benefits other people in society. If a person happens to be born with a differnent color skin or is a female instead of white male they could be given extra points in life to get a better life. During the late 1950 and into the 1970 the civil rights movement fought to level the playing field as they said and now it is level yet the quota practice still goes on. Now what I call Creeping Dependence continues as an accepted institution from generation to generation. As they say if you tell a lie enough times it become the truth. Anytime the government puts into place a hand up eventually it will be come a "Non-Renigging Benefit", or it is easier to give than cancel or take away.

NON-RENIGGING PERKS

Picture in your mind that during a time when a company is making lots of profit the owner decides to provide the employees with free coffee and other perks. These were new perks and the employees had not expected these new bennies. A few years go by and bad times come on the company and the owner decides he can no longer afford the free coffee and other benefits so he stops the free stuff to the employees. The employees on the other hand are now used to the free coffee and view the now accept free bennefits as part of their pay check and go out on strike to get their "rightful" bennefits back.

THE FUTURE

In the months and years to come I will look into hidden agenda driven changes taking place not only in our country but around the world. It will be an exciting mental trip for me and I hope you can join me as we discover all the crazy stuff out there where by groups of people try to control other people through laws and lies.